fate is a troll

Psyched

It’s as if he can read me and only a few people can do that.

Every thing he says strikes me.
I usually am the one who starts the conversation… Pero pag sya kausap ko, parang alam nya lahat ng nasa isip ko at inuunahan nya kong sabihin yun….

Farge… Nababasa nya rin kayang kasama siya sa mga nasa isip ko? 

I am amused.

How does he do that?

just because tomorrow’s the 26th.

lahat ng babae, naranasan/mararanasan maging “summer” minsan sa buhay nila.

ang luma na ng film, pero pinanood ko ulit. namiss ko lang yung 500 days of summer… at dahil na rin May 26 bukas.

nakakarelate? yes. di man kapani paniwala, naging summer din ako minsan sa buhay ko. may mga bagay lang talagang kahit pilitin natin, hindi talaga kaya. :)

malaki kasalanan ko sa kanya. iniwan ko sya sa ere without telling him why. after 6 months, bigla na lang ayaw ko na. tinatanong nya ko kung bakit, di ako sumasagot… di ko naman kasi ma explain na hindi ko sya masasaktan… but in the end, nasaktan pa rin sya. ugh.

changed my phone number, deleted him from my friends list, deleted my skype account… lahat ng koneksyon binura ko lang bigla. unhealthy mood swings.

nakakasakal kasi sya. hindi lang talaga siguro ako yung tipong pwede mong diktahan. alam nya naman yun from the start. naging mag kaklase naman kami for a year at kilala nya ako.

kilala nya nga kaya ako?

kilala ko ba sya?

hindi kaya ako yung nagtulak sa kanya para maging ganun tas in the end nung di ko pala kaya mag commit, bigla na lang akong aalis?

euphoric kasi ang mood ko nun. after ng 1st year of teaching, LET results, CSE result… lahat lahat na feeling ko kasama sya dun… pero hindi pala dapat.

i was wrong to play with his emotions. pero di ko sinasadya, at di ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin sa kanya kaya umalis na lang ako ng walang paalam.

which made matters worse.

now, naaalala ko sya everytime maririnig ko yung “somebody that i used to know” na iimagine ko sya kinakanta yun. ganun pa naman yung type nyang music. 

alam kong di makakarating ito sa kanya. but still, gusto kong mag sorry. argh. I FAIL AT LIFE… worse, dinamay pa kita. you’re a good person, you deserve someone better and hopefully, makita mo na sya… di kita kayang harapin, di ko alam kung paano mag re react pag nagkasalubong tayo… pero gusto kong malaman mong, i feel guilty and those six months will forever haunt me.

tomorrow’s the 26th and i clearly remember that night. 

ACCURATE.

masturbatewithacheesegrater:

do you know how much easier life would be if i wasnt obsessed with bands why cant i be obsessed with like collecting stamps stamps can never hurt you stamps dont play shows on the other side of the world or break up or refuse to reply to you on twitter

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